Making the decision to write everything I think & want to do has given me the freedom to start focusing on getting over my fear of failure as my mind is no longer bombarded with constant thoughts of the past or worry about the future.
So here is what I came up with so far, it’s still a work in progress, but I managed to capture it as soon as I thought about them.
I have been wanting to make a video to capture my thoughts and struggles for a while now, and one of the main reasons why I have been afraid to do so is not believing in my ability to impact people, as I feel like I am not good enough and don’t have the skills to make a difference.
Pondering over this, I realized a few reasons for this:
* Always wanting my first attempt in everything to be perfect without practice and
* I become frustrated when I am unable to capture my thoughts the way I want to express them.
As I think deeper, it’s clear to me this stemmed from not having a clear vision & purpose for what I ultimately want to achieve; and the reason why I haven't created a plan yet. I know I love helping people and get excited sharing my knowledge & experience with those I help, but what do I really want to see, how do I envision this to grow?
I get too caught up in making useless excuses instead of focusing on the message, so this week my task is to really design a plan that I want to see to fruition, a plan that excites me and one that I design myself and not emulate others.
In the past I spent time thinking about what I wanted to do but never took action and would do things out of emotion or impulse, creating this fear of not knowing what to do if I failed or didn’t turn out the way I wanted it to.
I came to understand the only way to succeed is to try, make mistakes, learn from it and try again.