I learned a very valuable lesson through my separation that suffering is necessary if I want to change. The process really sucks and hurts, but I am growing so much more than I would have had I not gone through it.
Looking through my past, I notice I wasn’t happy with who I became; I allowed myself to be crippled by fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of judgement, people pleasing and the lack of self-control that resulted in not knowing who I truly am and looking to people for acceptance & approval.
This journey is making me realize I need to change from within and expose all my weaknesses and be real with myself. Knowing no one is able to help me if I am not willing to help myself. So I am learning to flip this pain and use it to my advantage and recognize if I can overcome this, if I am able to find power to get through it, I can use it as a fuel for the rest of my life.
And the only way I can do this is by focusing on growing & strengthening my body, mind and soul. This is what I have started doing: I exercise/workout regularly, to let out the frustration and keep myself healthy and in shape; I am reading more literature on people who have gone through what I am going through and learn from them; I am also praying more and seeking God's guidance to help me persevere through this suffering to gain the courage and strength to fight my battles.
In life there is no shortcut or avoiding pain, I must go through the suffering, I must face the pain and learn from it, because through the process of overcoming is when I will find permanent peace, and greatness within.